There really are some incredible people, things and ideas in the world. I'm not sure where my intrigue begins, if at all it does, because I'd like to say that my interest in philosophy leads to being interested in people but perhaps its the other way round. A circular pattern with no defined start is perhaps more suitable, in more ways than one if you understand the connection.
I was brought up with a strong inclination towards making something of my life that I will appreciate and enjoy. To wake up knowing that I love my job and my situation is really something I'm striving for. Whenever I was given a choice that would shape my life, I went for what would provide me with satisfaction rather than what I thought was necessarily right. I didn't force myself to be good at biology to direct myself towards a medicinal career that gives a service so greatly needed in the world. I chose to study the arts and explore the limits, or lack of limits, within my creativity and imagination.
Choosing a life of passion hasn't made things particularly easy in a capitalist world. Being good at science and business and what I would consider 'structured' intelligence makes a path towards earning lots of money. The road less travelled, so to speak, means I get to enjoy life on a 'spiritual' level but face struggles financially. Obviously everyone is different and some people enjoy a determined life whilst others simply hold on for the ride and all the variations in between.
Being a recent graduate, I'm being forced to embrace 'funemployment' for a while, as I attempt to convince companies that I'm worth their money because my ideas are good enough and my skills are at least developed enough to be advantageous. And that's fine. I get to spend hours at the gym taking care of myself and when I wake up at any time before 9am I know it means I'm going to have a worthwhile day because I can do whatever I want. Of course, there are monetary restrictions and, y'know, laws, but I'm not restricted by the daily grind. It's really rather liberating. I have to reflect on my skills constantly and review how suitable I would be for posted positions. As I'm a positive person, I love this task. Though I have to notice gaps in my experience, in order to gain employment I have to interpret my experience into something useful and positive. That's great - I'm feeling more confident in myself and ready to prove to the world that I'm an asset. Empowering, to say the least.
This brings me onto my other topic: the gym. I've written before about my body issues and how I'm dealing with them constantly. I decided to join the gym and happily discovered that the facilities are actually rather cushty. This week I've been three times and every single time I've experienced the high associated with exercise. It's goooood! Walking back from a worthwhile session makes me think about what I've just acheived and appreciate life as it is. I have an exceptional boyfriend, a family who love me, a house to live in and the effort I put into my education means that I'm intelligent enough to realise all that is enough for me to be happy.
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